Naked, and Turned Another Life’s Sheet

The post is a 3-part post enrtry. I posted it on my other blog because it just feels right.. hehehe!!

To A Cherub: A Union

To A Cherub: A Memoir

To A Cherub (Epilogue): Eulogy

Today is: 12-10-2007

1. In all 11 pages of my friends in friendster, I did not personally know at least one of them on every page.

2. I still love Yano’s music.

3. I now like beers more than hard drinks.

4. I love being in a band performing than working in the office.

5. My first ever blog post for TrendLabs (Trend Micro) has been quoted in some IT News website (eWeek). Others need some membership so I didn’t bother. Google it if you want. :p.  You can check here for the actual post (only if you didn’t believe ^_^)

6. I may have to change my name (in friendster, in my blog) since it is already in the internet.

7. I am not the only [ my name inserted ] in the whole world.

8. I had a hypertension/high-blood, so i should lessen (i said ‘lessen’ not stop) from eating sisig.

9. I am a lazy sloppy blogger.

10. There’s someone reading this right now.

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If you want to try it on yourself click here

You entered: <  My Full Name ^_^ >

There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 90
There are 7 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression.

The expression or destiny for #9:
The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the ‘big brother or big sister’ type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It’s possible that you’re not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is: 1

A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.

The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren’t strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Whoa… Spooky… The web knows a lot more than me. hehe!

How about my Birthday? The link is here. The link where you can try it on your own can be found also there. ^_^

As what the title says, it’s a bedroom drama. It’s not because I’ll be dead soon (w/c is convincingly possible), also not because I’m drunk right now. And no! I am not that in mode (senti) if you think so. It’s just drama. A drama moment where you were in your room ready to sleep but your mind is still wandering around and have a sort of realization.

Yes, I want this time to be different.

This post is a drama and a song (never mind the video just the song), and dedicated to:

• My mother
• To my father
• To my brother
• To rest of my family
• To all of my childhood friends.
• To all of my "kainuman simula pa nung bata".
• To all people who I have argued with.
• To all the friends I had in elementary, in high school and college
• To all whom I’ve been connected with in friendster but I really didn’t know them.
• To all the friends who only knew me when they need something or when I’ve become big.
• To all the friends "na ang hirap yayain"
• To the one I had crush on elementary days
• To the one I had crush on High-school years
• To the one I had crush on college. (I still do until now and want to tell you someday)
• To the one(s) that have a secret crush on me (If there was/is) ^_^
• To the last last girl I deeply said "I love you" to. (more years ago)
• To the last girl I deeply said "I love you" to. (some years ago)
• To all angels to meet and already met.
• To all people who never knew they’ve been an angel. (at least for me.)
• To the last girl whom I WILL deeply say… "I love you".
• To her, who at some point, just came out of nowhere and digged-in a mark inside me–Tienshi.

View the rest of the message here (pls.)

Dun sa nagbabasa,

Umm.. Pero hindi naman talaga. Magpopost pa rin naman ako dito. (Pero hindi lang buo)

Duon sa nilipitan ko siya ipopost ng buo. ^_^

Mukhang mas ok dito (click niyo na dali) .

Bakit?

Wala lang.. meron lang akong hindi magawa dito, eh nagagawa ko dun (http://eenkooboos.blogspot.com/) . ^_^

Patalo eh.. hehehe!!

Yun lang…

Salamat,

–Ang nagsusulat.

A blast–I had a blast. I’m drunk. I am…
If I’m not, then you’re not reading this by now. I may have thought right then that I shouldn’t be posting something like this. But since I already planned to do this way before, and me, being drunk right now, would not care if somebody would be bored to read this at all (unless you’re her).

I must tell,

This will end in a line with one of my biggest excuse, if not lie ever. (Dare to skip lines f*** you!).

Since I cannot sleep well tonight, with some finished bottles of beer, and since I cannot think of things I’d be doing next, I should be sleeping soon (It’s just a matter of one day-dream, hundred of sheeps to count and doing nothing). But then I’ve realized that Coheed and Beatles are still giving me an LSS to sleep right away so it would not be a bad idea to sing inside the bathroom, find words to post, and be half-awake while half-dreaming.

So I did sang some songs. Four of them as I’ve remembered. I had great gig until I grew tired seeing the four walls of the bathroom. Then I went up to my room, lied to my bed and began counting sheeps.

I knew there was something coming. Someone was visiting. Someone will stay for a while. Please read more of it here.

May nahanap ako. Walang kasing halaga. Bagong tuklas.
–Ang aking sarili.

— oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo —

Kung ilagay ko kaya ang buhay sa isang script. At, sa loob ng isang kwento, nandun tayo. Tayo mismo, nasa script sa isang libro. —may kuwento.

Wala kang mukha, pangalan lang. Hindi ikaw, pero ang iyong pagkatao. Hindi uso ang maganda at panget, kasi nga wala kang mukha. Magugustuhan o Aayawan ka hindi sa iyong itsura kundi kung anong klaseng pagkatao meron ka sa ilalim ng storya.

Wala kang kapanganakan, intro lang. Hindi ka mamamatay, pero may ending ang kwento mo.

Dun ka nakatira sa ideyal na mundo, Nakapaligid sayo ang ideyal na mga tao. At ang buhay mo–Isang ideyal na kwento.

Walang langit. Walang multo. Walang Diyos. Well. depende sa storya.. Pero sa script na gagawin ko, Wala. Ako. Ako ang Diyos. Ako gagawa ng kwento mo.

At sa kwento ko.. Ikaw ay mulat. Magsusulat ka. Parang ganito. Diyos ka rin sa kwento ko. Ikaw ang Diyos ng sarili mong mundo… Tulad ko.

— oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo —

**pop
tao1: uy, tol.. balita? hehe!! kumusta?
tao2: uy men, long time no hear ah. ok lang ako.. nasa opis ako ngayon.. kaw? balita?

tao1: ok lang din.. papasok pa lang.. dun na ulit ako sa opis mag oonline.. kelan tayo inuman?
tao2: oo nga noh!! kita naman tayo.. tagal na tayong hindi nagkikita eh..

tao1: lagi ka bang online tol?
tao2: umm.. hindi naman lagi.. minsan lang.. pero siguro ngayon pwede ng lagi. pde pala siya sa opis eh.
tao1: talaga? ayos.. at least.. magkakabalitaan tayo.. tapos pwede kita yayain mag-inuman.

tao1: oo.. ‘tsong.. para magkita-kita ulit tayo!!
tao2: ayos yan.. cge.. try kong yayain yung iba..
tao1: oks.
tao2: ikaw tol? lagi ka bang online?
tao1: oo tsong pero lagi akong invisible..
tao2: invi? bakit naman?
tao1: wala lang.. oo nga pala.. mag-iinvisible lang ako ha? w8 lang..
tao2: oks.. may tinataguan ka noh?
tao1: haha!! wala ah. Wala lang.
tao1: Parang Ok kasi mag-invisible eh.. Hindi nila alam na online ka tapos alam mong online sila. Parang nag-oobserve ka lang. Inoobserbahan mo sila sa status nila.. Parang nakikita mo kung gaano sila kasaya o kalungkot sa status nila ^_^ Parang Diyos.
tao2: ayos ah. Parang Diyos.
tao1: hehe!
tao2: ma-try ko nga rin..
tao1: hehehe! ayos!

tao2: pero ‘tsong parang baliktad ah?
tao1: baliktad? …. huh?
tao2: yung sinabi mo kanina… Tayo yung laging invisible. Yung Diyos lagi siyang online. Alam natin nandiyan siya. Alam natin kung anong status ng Diyos. Tayo.. Tayo, lang yung namimili kung kelan natin siya ippop ng msg. Kung kelan lang tayo may gusto sabihin, o kaya parang may gusto tayong hingan ng tulong.. Lagi siyang online. Lagi siyang naghihintay ng makaka-chat..

tao2: parang ikaw. Pwedeng nakita mo na akong nag-online dati.. tapos online ka lagi, pero invisible. Ikaw. lang namili ng oras na ngayon mo ako kumustahin.. Para kang tayo.. –TAO.

tao1: ….
tao2: hehehe! tsong.. taagaay..
tao1: hehehe!! ayos yun ah. Ako representasyon ng tao.. Ikaw, ikaw ang Diyos..
tao2: hehe! hindi ah.. Hindi naman ako laging online eh.

tao1: hahah!! ayos.. ang galing ng sagot ah.. pero may pagka-Diyos ka pa rin..
tao2: wenk!! huh?? ayos ah? pano mo nasabi?
tao1: alam namin online ka.. Ppop ka namin.. Pero minsan… hindi ka naman nagrereply.. ^_^ Buti nga ikaw eh, minsan lang.. eh si Lord.. hmm.. hindi man lang sumasagot ng.. "o ano yun? bakit?" o kaya "o <Tao>. kumusta?" hehe!! diba? kahit kailan wala.

tao2: wahaha!! oo nga naman! well hindi ko alam.. ewan ko.. hindi naman ako Diyos. Wala naman akong lahing Diyos.. Pero meron ako.. umm.. Ugaling Diyos..
tao1: Ugaling Diyos? ano un?
tao2: naku.. alam mo un noh.. meron ka rin nun noh.. Hindi mo lang namamalayan.. pero Parang pag-ibig.. Hindi mo alam nandiyan lang.. wahahaha!
tao1: tagay pa!! hehehehe!!
tao2: hehe!! tagay pa..

— oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo — oOo —

Aaaaarrrgggghhhh!!

Ewan ko.. Pero meron talagang mga taong.. hindi ko alam kung bakit may ganung pag-iisip.. ^_^

ako sa totoo lang. meron lang akong gustong iprove sa sarili ko. at iprove sa kanila.
to those who looked at me/you as a "worthless empty nothing". Na tipong tingin sayo walang patutunguhan. Tapos pag-iisipan ka pa na  walang pinag-aralan o kaya mababaw mag-isip, o kaya buhay na walang patutunguhan.  na kung tingnan ka eh "tingnan mo nga manamit, adik siguro yan".. "ah si rommel?, adik yun eh". o kaya naman, tinignan ka lang, etong klaseng tao ka na.. huh?? Anong pag-iisip ba yun?!!!! Sino ba sila? Ni hindi man nga lang ikaw nakakausap. Ni magkasabay sumakay sa sasakyan. Ni makasabay nga lang sa pagkain wala eh.. Nak ng… Kung magsalita akala mo ganun ka kilala.talaga naman!!!!

Ewan ko kung na feel nyo ito minsan sa buhay nyo.
The more they step on you the more you work hard, the more you are motivated to make a statement.. hindi lang para sayo.. Pero para sa lahat ng mga taong tulad nila..

yung parang gusto mo ulit sila makita. tapos, pag nagkita ulit kayo, hey. what now?! what now?!! do you remember me?!! who am I?!!
who am i again? eto ako oh. eto ka ngayon para sa akin - "worthy of of something to laugh about sa inuman.." Yung tipong wala silang ibang magagawa kundi ngumiti na lang habang napapahiya - loser.

Oo.. "Magiging ako rin sila". Walang pinagbago… Pero… eto yun eh- "they will feel what i’ve/you’ve felt at that time".. hahaha! At yun ang gusto natin diba? That kind of revenge.. sooooo sweeet.. hehe! ^_^ Kahit sandali lang.. kahit sandali lang ok na..

At sa ending… Pwedeng Friends kayo (losers! ^_^) o kung di man kayo close,  you will thank them for being what you are right now. (bitter! ^_^)

(pu!#@… konyo.. hehe!! english english pa ako)

Sige mga ‘tsong high blood na ako.. hehehe! ^_^ Yung mga taong katulad kasi nila.. nakakahigh blood talaga… nakakakonyo!!

Kaya sa mga taong ganun. ummm. mga tsong Malapit na!

Why not think about this! Hmmmm…a paradigm shift?

Imagine you’re in an airport. While you’re waiting for your flight, you  notice a kiosk selling shortbread cookies.

You buy a box, put them in your traveling bag and then you patiently search for an available seat so you can sit down and enjoy your cookies.

Finally you find a seat next to a gentleman. You reach down into your traveling bag and pull out your box of shortbread cookies.

As you do so, you notice that the gentleman starts watching you intensely. He stares as you open the box and his eyes follow your hand as you pick up the cookie and bring it to your mouth. Just then he
reaches over and takes one of your cookies from the box and eats it!

You’re more than a little surprised at this. Actually, you’re at a loss for words. Not only does he take one cookie, but he alternates with you.

For every one cookie you take, he takes one.

Now, what’s your immediate impression of this guy? Crazy? Greedy? He’s got some nerve! Can you imagine the words you might use to describe this man to your associates back at the office? Meanwhile, you both  continue eating the cookies until there’s just one left.

To your surprise, the man reaches over and takes it. But then he does something unexpected. He breaks it in half, and gives half to you.

After he’s finished with his half he gets up, and without a word, he leaves.

You think to yourself, "Did this really happen?"
You’re left sitting there dumbfounded and still hungry. So you go back to the kiosk and buy another box of cookies. You then return to your seat and begin opening your new box of cookies when you glance down
into your traveling bag.

Sitting there in your bag is your original box of cookies — still unopened.

Only then did you realize that when you reached down earlier, you had reached into the other man’s bag and grabbed his box of cookies by mistake.

Now what do you think of the man? Generous? Tolerant?
You’ve just experienced a profound paradigm shift.
You’re seeing things from a new point of view.

Is it time to change your point of view?

Now, think of this story as it relates to your life. Seeing things from a new point of view can be very enlightening.

Think outside the box. Don’t settle for the status quo. Be open to suggestions. Things may not be what they seem.

Hmmmmm……

                                                                                                                                                        -Taken from TCQC forum ^_^

1. Don’t spoil me. I know quite well that I ought not to have all that I ask for. I’m testing you.

2. Don’t be afraid to be firm with me. I prefer it; it makes me feel more secure.

3. Don’t let me form bad habits. I have to rely on you to detect them in the early stages.

4. Don’t make me feel smaller than I really am. It only makes me behave stupidly "big".

5. Don’t correct me in front of people if you can help it. I’ll take much more notice if you talk to me privately.

6. Don’t make me feel my mistakes are sins. It upsets my sense of values.

7. Don’t protect me from consequences. I sometimes have to learn the painful way.

8. Don’t be too upset when I say, "I hate you." It isn’t you I hate, but your power to thwart me.

9. Don’t take too much notice of my small ailments. Sometimes they get me the attention I need.

10. Don’t nag. If you do, I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.

11. Don’t forget that I can not explain myself as well as I should like; this is why I’m not always accurate.

12. Don’t make rash promises. Remember that I feel badly let down when promises are broken.

13. Don’t tax my honesty too much. I am easily frightened into telling lies.

14. Don’t be inconsistent. That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

15. Don’t tell me my fears are silly. They are terribly real to me and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand.

16. Don’t put me off when I ask questions. If you do, you will find that I stop asking and get my information elsewhere.

17. Don’t ever suggest that you are perfect or infallible. It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.

18. Don’t ever think it is beneath your dignity to apologize to me. An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm toward you.

19. Don’t forget how quickly I am growing up. It must be difficult to keep pace with me, but please, do try.

20. Don’t forget that I love experimenting. I couldn’t get along without it so please put up with it.

21. Don’t forget that I can’t thrive without lots of understanding love, but I don’t need to tell you that do I?

- Taken From Ilsye hehehe!!! (someone’s blog). just took this cool entry without her permission, sorry Ilsye. And, thanks for having a nice entry like this. ^_^